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Wonder Of My World (9/?)  
Yes, as unbelievable as it sounds, we didn't forget about this story. And even though we really did wrong by all of you people following it, we hope you haven't forgotten about it, either, and will want to keep on reading.
It's been a hectic time for both me and ilovemybaby and our beta. On my part, it's also been a hellish time. And although that's not really an excuse, I hope you will forgive us anyway.
This chapter isn't betaed. As I've said, our beta is very busy, too, so we've decided to post this part unbetaed. Any mistakes are all ours. We didn't even manage to get the three chapters ready, but a three-chapters post will come soon. :)
The next chapter will be up in time for the New Year's Eve, and I promise we'll be updating constantly from now on.

Again, awfully sorry, and Happy Holidays to all of you.


Title: Wonder Of My World (9/?)
Authors: ilovemybaby & fallonblackdays
Characters/Pairings: Jared/Jensen, Steve Carlson, Christian Kane
Disclaimers: We don't own these people, they own themselves. None of this ever happened and, alas, the couple is not real. None of this was meant as an offence to anyone. We're just pretending, folks.
Notes: (1) Story and chapters titles and quotes all coming from various Steve Carlson's songs.
Summary: Something's wrong with Jensen, and he makes a point not to tell Jared what is it. But when Jared finds out anyway, his reaction surprises even Jared himself.

chapters warning: this chapter is not betaed!

Chapter 1 – Tell You A Tale | Chapter 2 – On The Road | Chapter 3 – Kinda Crazy These Days | Chapter 4 – I Could Never Say… | Chapter 5 – Losing My Mind | Chapter 6 - What You’re Running From | Chapter 7 – Moving Along | Chapter 8 - Between A Lover And A Friend

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Wonder Of My World

Chapter 9 - I Asked For Help From Above

“Looking through eyes that wept, I confessed my love, and as you slept i asked for help from above...”
(“Piñata Novia” - Steve Carlson)


The next morning, Chris is blissfully asleep when the knock comes. He opens a bleary eye and glares at the door, as if his scorching gaze could be enough to have it stop making such a a sound.

‘Oh hell...’ he thinks in annoyance, shooting a glance at the clock on the bedside table and groaning at the early morning hour flashing back at him. ‘What the fuck...’

He eventually rolls out of bed, mumbling out curses all the way to the door and throwing it open harshly once he reaches it.
His growl clearly says, ‘I was sleeping, asshole, so be quick’.

Jensen takes a look at his friend and curses inwardly. Waking Chris up isn’t exactly a good start for an apology.

“Um... hey,” he greets lamely, flashing him an hesitant smile.

Chris’ eyes narrow, which isn't really an attempt to scare the shit out of the person who's at the door, but due to the need of taking a good look at who it is that’s standing in front of him, since his eyes don’t seem to be in the mood to open up fully.

“Oh... hey, man,” he greets back, stepping aside to let Jensen in.

“Sorry I woke you,” Jensen offers. “Maybe I should go, come back later.”

“No no no no,” Chris says quickly, walking into the tiny bathroom to splash cold water over his face. “You’re here now, and here you’ll stay. At least, until you tell me why you’re here.”

“As soon as you’re done in there,” Jensen calls back, waiting patiently in the bedroom. “I want you to be looking at me when I say it.”

Chris stops his movements suddenly, frowning at Jensen’s words. He dries the water off his face and walks out quickly.
“What is it?” he asks, and damn him, he can’t keep the anxiety out of his voice. “You alright?”

Jensen sighs. Heavily.
“I’ve been an ass, Chris,” he says quietly. “And I’m sorry. You’re only trying to help, and I want you to know that I appreciate it.”

There are a few moments of silence before Chris actually speaks.
“You know,” he begins carefully, “you being an ass is really an understatement. But it’s okay,” he smiles. “I’m sorry for pushing you- ” He trails off and then flashes Jensen a smirk. “Nah, I’m not sorry at all.”

Jensen shakes his head fondly.
“Yeah, I figured you wouldn’t be.” He hesitates for a split second. “So we’re okay?”

Chris gives him a genuine smile.
“Sure we are, man. And consider yourself lucky, what with the perfect hour of the day you’ve picked for your apology,” he adds with a laugh.

Jensen barely stifles a yawn at the very thought. “Yeah, I know.”

Chris is still laughing when he pats Jensen’s back gently.
“Go get some sleep. You look like shit.”

Jensen shrugs. “I do?” he asks innocently. “Must be the early hour.”

“Must be you not sleeping,” Chris says knowingly, his sharp eyes piercing through Jensen. “You think I don’t know you at all?”

“Hey, you’re the one who stormed off like some sort of very unusual drama queen forcing me to-” The room picks that moment to suddenly spin on its axis. “Whoa.”

It takes Chris only one instant to be at Jensen’s side, grabbing his arm to steady him as he sways.
“Dude, you okay?”

Jensen swallows, idly wondering when has the room become so hot.
“Yeah,” he says after a few moments, eventually regaining his balance. “Yeah. Must be more tired than I thought. I guess I’ll go get some shuteye, uh?”

Despite the reassuring smile Jensen offers, Chris is still frowning as he leads him to the door.
“You sure you’re okay?” he asks worriedly. “You wanna crash here? Bed is empty, thanks to you.”

“Nah, ‘m okay. Thanks. My hotel isn’t that far away, remember? I’ll see ya tonight.”
Jensen pats Chris’ shoulder reassuringly and walks away.
He’s definitely a lot more tired than he thought, because once he has reached his own hotel room, he’s out almost before his head hits the pillow.


Thoughts are swirling madly around Jared’s head as he walks down the hallway towards Jensen’s room.
‘I have to talk to him’ is the one that pops up the most often. ‘Even if all I’ll be hearing is him yelling at me.’
It’s a likely option after all. In fact, Jared wonders why Jensen hasn’t exploded, yet. It kind of worriers him.

He reaches Jensen's door too quickly (or too slowly, he can’t quite decide) and takes a few moments to square his shoulders and get a deep breath in before knocking.

“Jen, it’s me,” he calls quietly.

Inside the room, Jensen burrows deeper under the pile of covers and groans. It takes him a while to realize that the pounding he’s hearing is not just in his temples but is actually coming from the door.
He coughs and forces his heavy-lidded eyes to open. For a fleeting moment he debates with himself whether he should try to get up and open the door himself, but he eventually decides against it and croaks out a hoarse, ‘Open’ that he hopes Jared has heard despite the sand-papery quality of his voice.

“Jen?” Jared’s voice sounds worried when it speaks next, and Jensen looks up to find him peering down at him in concern. The mattress dips as Jared takes a seat next to him on the edge of the bed, his large, warm hand going to stroke Jensen’s arm under the covers. “Man, what’s wrong?”

“Mh,” Jensen mumbles, eventually losing the battle and letting his lids droop. “Sleepin’,” he slurs.

“With all these blankets on?” Jared asks, arching an eyebrow. “It’s not cold in here, Jen.” It’s June and they’re in Texas. Blankets shouldn’t definitely be included. Jared eyes Jensen critically for a few moments before finally reaching out to feel his forehead. And in that instant, everything clicks into place. “Fuck, you’re burning up.” He all but rushes into the bathroom to pick up a towel. A few moments later he’s back at Jensen’s side, gently running the damp cloth over his forehead and neck. “Jen, talk to me,” he says softly. “Tell me how you’re feeling.”

Jensen clumsily swats his hands away. “Lemme be. ‘m okay. Sleepy.” He opens his eyes again, blinking groggily at the slightly unfocused figure sitting next to him. “Jay?” he murmurs, almost as if he’s just seeing him for the first time.

“Yeah, it’s me.” If Jared was worried before, now he’s on the verge of calling an ambulance. He knows he’s probably overreacting, but he can’t quite help it: it’s Jensen’s skin burning under his touch, and his stomach clenches abruptly. “What’s wrong, Jen?” he asks again, gently caressing Jensen’s sweaty features.

“Nothin’.” Jensen pushes himself up into a sitting position and rubs at his tired eyes. “Nothing’s wrong, I was just taking a nap.”

“Dude. You’re burning up,” Jared says incredulously. “How’s that for ‘nothing’s wrong’?”

“I ain’t burnin’,” Jensen argues. “Actually, ‘m freezin’.”

Jared swallows. “Fuck, Jen...” He gets up and rummages into his pocket for his cell phone. “I’d better take you to the hospital.”

Jensen stares at him as if he believes Jared’s suddenly gone mad.
“Oh, c’mon,” he scoffs. “The worse that can be is the flu, I don’t need a damn hospital.”

“Then why don’t you just fucking tell me what’s wrong, dammit!” Jared almost screams. He sighs, closes his eyes and mumbles a quiet ‘I’m sorry’. He doesn’t know why his nerves are so on edge all of a sudden, and he doesn’t know why he’s taking it out on Jensen, of all people. “You sure you don’t wanna see a doctor to make sure that’s what you have?” he asks then.

Jensen shakes his head and gives him a small smile.
“I’m sure. Look, I feel like crap, okay?” he finally admits. “But I just need a couple of days, tops.” He frowns a little as a thought suddenly flashes through his mind. “Aw hell,” he moans. “Steve’s show is tonight.”

Jared sits back down on the bed next to him. “I’m sure he won’t mind. You’ve already been at two of his concerts, and you even sang in one.” He grins a little. “If he’s got the nerve to get mad this time I swear I’ll punch him.”

Without thinking, Jensen reaches up, cups the back of Jared’s neck and tugs him in for a kiss.
He pulls away a moment later.
“Sorry,” he mumbles, looking down.

“Hey.” Jared cups his chin and gently tilts his face up to stare deep into his eyes. “Don’t be sorry,” he whispers, leaning in to press a small kiss over Jensen’s lips. “I’m the one who should be.”

“What for?” Jensen asks with a small frown.

“Everything,” Jared whispers, suddenly taking a huge interest in the covers’ colors. “I’m sorry for all of this.”

“Jay-” Jensen doesn’t get any further. He coughs a few times, mumbles a quick, “Oh shit”, and is out of the bed like a shot, making a bee line for the bathroom.

In Jensen’s book, the worst thing about having the flu is not the fever, or the cough, or not being able to stay awake for more than a couple of hours on end. In Jensen’s book, the worst thing about having the flu is throwing up.

He groans loudly as his stomach heaves.
‘Good timing,’ he thinks miserably. ‘Fucking good timing.’

And then Jared is at his side again, gently massaging his back and neck.

“I’ll be right back,” he murmurs. And he obviously means it, because a few moments later he’s back with a glass of water in his hand. “Here,” he says, handing it over to Jensen. “Drink some.”

Jensen drinks, rinses his mouth, spits and drinks again, collapsing with his back against the bathtub, tired eyes looking blearily up at Jared.

“Shit,” he says curtly.

Jared smiles softly at him. “Indeed. You wanna go back to bed?”

Jensen nods and pushes himself up to his feet, grabbing the sink for support when the room spins like it happened that morning in Chris’ room. Jared’s arm wraps around his waist, strong and supporting, gently guiding him back to his bed and under the warm covers.

“We need to know how high is your fever,” Jared speaks in a low, soothing voice. “Then we’ll see to find something that'll make you feel better.”

“Mh... I don’t really care,” Jensen mumbles, hearing the lulling call of sleep again. He holds a hand out. “Come here.”

Jared sits back down and takes Jensen’s hand in his own, stroking the back of it quietly. The caresses travel up to Jensen’s wrist, then his arm, his shoulder, up to his neck and finally stopping over his face.
“What do you want me to do?” he asks in a whisper.

Jensen leans into the touch and closes his eyes.
“Just stay with me. Just for a while.”
He means it. Just for a while. It’s okay if Jared chooses Sandy in the end. It’s okay if Jared’s gone when he wakes up. Just as long as he’s here while he falls asleep.


The shrill ringing takes a while to register.
Jensen feels hot now, but he’s reluctant to pull away from where he’s snuggled into Jared’s arms, his head safely tucked under Jared’s chin.

He groans and opens his eyes, looking around dazedly for the source of the sound that invaded his sleep.

Jared stirs, as well, as soon as he feels Jensen moving in his embrace. He quickly tightens his hold around him to prevent him from pulling away.

“Lemme get that,” he mumbles. “You stay right where you are.”
It takes him a while to get a hold of Jensen’s cell phone on the bedside table without actually pulling away, but he manages, and he smiles in satisfaction as he flips it open and Jensen snuggles back contently in his arms. “‘lo?”

“Jared?” comes a well-known, slightly puzzled voice from the other end of the line.

Jared’s still-half-asleep mind takes a moment to process the honeyed Southern drawl and associate it with a face.
“Kane?” And really, he’s pretty sure of his own words even if it comes out as a question.

“Why are you answering Jensen’s phone?” There’s a brief pause that suddenly sounds like embarrassment before Chris speaks again. “Oh fuck, did I interrupt anything?”

Jared smiles a little, looking tenderly down at Jensen, who’s staring up at him with curious but sleep-dulled green eyes, his chin resting over Jared’s chest.
“Nah, we were just taking a nap,” he dismisses then. “Is everything alright?”

“Yeah,” Chris says after another brief moment of silence. “Jensen looked kinda out of it this morning, just thought I’d give him a call. Ya know, me being a mother hen and all.” There’s a grin in Chris’ voice as he echoes the words Jensen throws at him any chance he gets. “You guys are cool?”

Jared laughs. “Well, I’m sure he appreciates and loves his mother hen, man, don’t worry,” he says. “Anyway, Jen’s got the flu, but he’s okay. You okay, right?” he asks Jensen, looking down a little anxiously at him and receiving a simple nod in return. “Yeah, he’s okay.”

Chris is about to give in to relief when he hears Jensen coughing sharply, the fit going on for a while.
“That him?” he asks, frowning even though Jared can’t see him.

“Yeah, it’s him. You wanna talk to him?”

“Yeah, thanks. I’ll be quick.”

Jared hands the phone over to Jensen, watching as he takes it and squirms around until he’s laying on his back.

“Hey,” Jensen croaks out, and he must sound really awful, because when Chris speaks again, he sounds almost shocked.

“Man, what the hell happened to you? You were fine this morning!”

Jensen holds the phone away as he coughs, then takes it back to his ear.
“No fuckin’ clue.”

“Damn, Jen,” Chris sighs. “You need anything? Did you take anything? Are you taking care of yourself?” he asks in a rush.

Jensen laughs. It comes out more like a cough, but he’s laughing.
“Dude, chill,” he says. “I’ve taken some tylenol and I got Jared right here. I’m fine.”

“You sure? Want me to come over and ruin your little get-together?” Chris’ smirk can actually be heard through the line, but Jensen doesn’t really notice.

“Mmm...” he yaws, blinking groggily. “Uh? No,” he mumbles. “Stay where you are. But I love you, too, Chris, you don’t have to be jealous.”

“I’ll try,” Chris says, playing along. “Alright then, I’ll leave you with your guy now. But call me if you need anything, you hear me?”

“Yeah, thanks. I really love you, you know?” Jensen says dazedly, sleep and fever clouding his mind so that he’s not entirely aware of what it is that he’s saying.
He lets go of the phone and rolls back onto his side, burrowing closer to Jared, not even realizing that he hasn’t hung up.

“Yeah, alright, alright,” Chris keeps on talking, pausing after that to wait for an answer that doesn’t come. “Jen? Jensen?” All Chris gets is nothing. “JENSEN!”

The phone is nowhere near Jared’s ear, but even he can hear Chris yelling. He scrambles for the abandoned phone next to Jensen and snatches it up.
“Hey man. Jensen dozed off, he’s out as a light.”

Chris is silent for a moment.
“The little shit,” he spits, but relief’s evident in his voice. “Almost gave me a heart attack. Mind you take good care of him, Jared, you hear?”

“Will do, sir,” Jared teases. “Really, don’t worry.” He tightens his hold around Jensen a bit, smiling when Jensen returns the gesture.

“Alright. Like I said to Jen, call me if you need anything. And expect some checking in from Steve, too. Man likes to pretend like nothing fazes him but he worries even more than I do.”

“Alright man. Thanks for the warning,” Jared smiles.

“No problem. I’ll see you guys soon.”


Jared doesn’t sleep after Chris’ call. When he starts looking at Jensen, it’s to try and figure out what to do, as if Jensen’s features may give him the answer. But soon he gets lost in the middle of freckles, long eyelashes, parted, beautiful lips, perfect nose and soft hair.

He stares for hours before finally daring to reach out and touch all that beauty, his thumb caressing first Jensen’s cheek, then his eyebrows, his nose, and finally his mouth, tracing out his lips with his fingertips.

Once again, Jensen leans into the touch. He stirs and blinks his eyes open, smiling sleepily up at him.

“Hello there,” Jared whispers with an answering smile. “Feeling any better?”

Jensen doesn’t reply. He reaches out, strokes Jared’s cheek for a few moments and then burrows even closer, burying his face into Jared’s chest, inhaling his scent as if he’s trying to commit it to memory.

“I love you,” Jared says quietly as he keeps on caressing Jensen’s face and hair. “So much.”

Jensen sighs, his voice barely a whisper when he speaks next. “Jay?”


“I don’t wanna let you go,” Jensen admits. Locking his eyes with Jared’s as he says the words is about the hardest thing he’s ever done.

Jared bites down on his bottom lip so fast and hard that it almost bleeds.
“I don’t want you to let me go, either. Just- Just try to wait for me...” Jared tries very hard not to break down right then and there. “Please?” he begs, and he knows that he can’t, he has no right to ask for such a thing, but he needs to know that Jensen will be there in the end.


feeling: guiltyguilty
Vicki: jensen handeilan on December 21st, 2007 06:51 pm (UTC)
Poor Jensen sick... but I'm glad they're starting to sort things out..
Loved the update
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:11 am (UTC)
Thanks Vicki! And yeah, Jensen's not feelin' that great right now... *pets him*
no matter what: win fuck me nowsanann on December 21st, 2007 07:20 pm (UTC)
no matter what: fire withinsanann on December 21st, 2007 09:03 pm (UTC)
oh c'mon Jared. It's so easy! you know what to do.
(no subject) - fallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:13 am (UTC) (Expand)
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Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:15 am (UTC)
Jared needs to pull his act together ASAP.
Glad you liked the update!! :D
kuhekabirkuhekabir on December 21st, 2007 07:43 pm (UTC)
Wow, update. Great. Loved it, please post more soon :)
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:17 am (UTC)
More's coming ASAP. Thanks so much for reading! I'm happy you liked the update. :)
april70: he did itapril70 on December 21st, 2007 08:29 pm (UTC)
Ooooooh, Update!!!! How could I forget about this story? Simply not possible! I feel so bad for Jensen - but I know, he will wait forever, right! Till Jared is ready for him. And it won't be that long, right? ^^

Happy holidays!!
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:20 am (UTC)
Awww. Thanks so much! I'm glad you liked the update. :) Jared will eventually pull his head outta his ass, he just needs some more time.

Happy holidays to you, too!
Shellztrueshellz on December 21st, 2007 08:35 pm (UTC)
*cuddles fic*
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:22 am (UTC)
Awww! Thank you! Hopefully we're back on track with this story now! ;)
ymmy12ymmy12 on December 21st, 2007 09:01 pm (UTC)
i hope it really is only the flu
love the tenderness jared and jensen have with each other
and of course always loving a mother hen chris
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:25 am (UTC)
Mother hen!Chris FTW!! LOL Seriously, I just enjoy writing him like that, I find him cute. I'm glad you like him, too. And I'm glad you liked the update. :) Thank you!
pyroblaze18: SPN: j2 - Climb!kultiras on December 21st, 2007 09:55 pm (UTC)
Awww, I feel sorry for Jensen - it's never any fun being sick under normal circumstances; this must be even worse for him.

Loved the update!
(Anonymous) on December 22nd, 2007 09:42 am (UTC)
Yes, the poor boy. *pets him*
I'm glad you enjoyed the update! More's coming ASAP. :)
(no subject) - fallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:42 am (UTC) (Expand)
Aj;;dare_to_dream06 on December 21st, 2007 10:33 pm (UTC)
awe =(
jensen's so sick.
but at least jared's there to take care of him. *beams*
i hope jared can make the right decision (which would OBVIOUSLY be jensen) soon. *is nervous*

great chapter and i'm glad to see an update! <3
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:44 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm so glad you liked the update. :)
Yeah, Jared really needs to put his head outta his ass soon.

p.s.: love the icon!!
(no subject) - dare_to_dream06 on December 22nd, 2007 05:16 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - fallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 01:45 am (UTC) (Expand)
z3s_keep_going: spn :: all i want for x-mas jensenz3s_keep_going on December 21st, 2007 11:35 pm (UTC)
omg they need to just get together and everything will be perfect. lol
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:44 am (UTC)
That they do. LOL Thanks so much for reading! :D
Wendy2sexyboys on December 21st, 2007 11:48 pm (UTC)
Wait? How long?Oh man this is killing me. Need my boys happy :(
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:45 am (UTC)
Awww. *pets you* Don't worry, it'll be okay in the end. Maybe. *grins evilly*
Thanks so much for reading!!
Deb: J2 Chicago condebarouchi on December 22nd, 2007 01:11 am (UTC)
An update, so happy to see this on the flist, and seriously as if we would forget this fic. I think you guys have had all of us hooked on it so I doubt people will be forgetting it now!

Saving to read this and the new Snapshots tonight, off to your journal to read some more of your fics aswell
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:46 am (UTC)
Thanks so much for your words, it means a lot to know that you guys aren't too pissed at us for the slow update. :P
Lenaalena2b on December 22nd, 2007 01:21 am (UTC)
wow! this is an awesome story! just read it in one breath from the beginning.. i love those 'in-head' in-sights! can't wait for the update!! :))
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:47 am (UTC)
Thanks so much!! I'm real glad to know that you're enjoying the story. :D More's coming asap. :)
Skywalker-Winchester: supernatural_brothers05  jsie_iconsanakin415 on December 22nd, 2007 07:30 am (UTC)

**hugs the boys tight**
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:47 am (UTC)
:) *hugs you*
Thanks for reading!
Isabel ~ El únicochavelaprincess on December 22nd, 2007 08:28 am (UTC)
Damn! This story fucking rocks! I am so glad that I saw this. I cannot believe that I never saw it before! This is so awesome!
Soniafallonblackdays on December 22nd, 2007 09:48 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm so happy to know that you liked the story so much. :D
tigerpinkytigerpinky on December 22nd, 2007 03:32 pm (UTC)
I am really glad I found this. Can't wait for more.
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you! More is coming soon. I'm glad you're liking the story so far. :)
Stjra: Wincest Reflectionstjra on December 22nd, 2007 03:59 pm (UTC)
The best bit about coming in late to a WIP is you don't have to wait like everyone else for the fic! LOL!

What a fabulous Christmas Present - Sick!Jensen, Schmoopy J2 and mother hen Chris Kane! OMG the best present ever! Hee, Hee, so many favs all in one update, just awesome!
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:12 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad you enjoyed this chapter so much! :D Thank you!!
just another fruit loop in this bowl called life: SPN-J2 windowskeyweegirlie on December 22nd, 2007 04:58 pm (UTC)
Ok, that whole last little section made me get all teary eyed. *sniffles*

Great update Sweeties...I'm anxious for more.
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:16 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad you liked it, Cass. :) I like that small section myself. ;)
AbbySN_24loversn_24lover on December 22nd, 2007 07:16 pm (UTC)
YEAH! It's back. I am so glad for the update, great xmas gift. I found this a while back and fell in love with it. This chapter was awesome. Poor sick Jensen but love that Jared is taking care of him. Can't wait for more, but will wait patiently for as long as I need to.

Again awesome, and I love it. :)
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:18 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much. I'm glad that you liked the update and I'm glad that you're not about to throw stones at us for the huge delay. LOL
Thanks so much for reading. :)
angieobsessedangieobsessed on December 22nd, 2007 09:39 pm (UTC)
lovely update. I loved the way Jared took care of Jensen and how they acted around each other. more soon, please

happy holidays. have a great time.
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:19 pm (UTC)
More will be coming real soon. Thanks so much for reading! I'm happy you enjoyed the update. :)
Happy holidays to you, too!
kliqzangel: Christian & Steve 09kliqzangel on December 23rd, 2007 03:20 am (UTC)

I am so glad this came before my vacation!! *does another happy dance*

I still have faith in Jay. He's in such a tough place, but I think it's obvious how much he loves Jensen. I just can't imagine him doing anything, but choosing Jen in the end.

Poor Jen being sick, but I think it brought them closer which is something they both needed.

Wonderful update!!
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:25 pm (UTC)
Yeah, well... Jared's decision isn't an easy one to make. Like you said, tight spot.
I'm so glad you enjoyed the chapter. Thank you for reading! :D
teena1013: pic#56010929teena1013 on December 23rd, 2007 07:46 am (UTC)
thanks for the new update. it's a sweet one and i'm so happy that things are clearing up for our boys.
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading and dropping us a line. I'm so glad you liked the chapter! :)
Miriamele: Kittens huggin'miri_cris on December 23rd, 2007 11:23 am (UTC)
So lovely update!!

I hope it's only flu, poor Jen, he's really vulnerable right now.

I don't want to let you go

This was very sweet and Jared telling Jen to wait for him *aaaw*

Amazing work, girls *hugs*
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'm happy you liked this chapter so much. :) That part is one of my favorite, 'cause it's the first time we see Jensen actually thinking about what he wants rather than what he thinks would be best for Jared .
freedom_flyfreedom_fly on December 23rd, 2007 04:53 pm (UTC)
Just gone back and re read the series , to get myself back into the groove.
Does this mean that Jensen isn't going to give up Jared withot a fight?
Great to see the story back!
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:29 pm (UTC)
You'll see. There will be a turning point in the next chapter. ;) Thanks so much for reading, I'm so happy you enjoyed the update!!
Lissie: Alone *Jensen*ilovesn on December 24th, 2007 03:22 am (UTC)


*cries* FIX THEM

will mem
Soniafallonblackdays on December 25th, 2007 04:30 pm (UTC)
*hands tissues* Patience, Lis. They will get fixed... eventually. :P Thanks for reading! :D